~ArTiFiciAL LoVe~

It’s almost 4 am in the morning and I’m still awake watching SKINS while I’m supposed to be sleeping at this moment since I’ve got class at freakin’ 8 AM in the morning!! Urrghh.. I’m sleepy but my eyes widely fluttered open.

Well, last time I’d introduce you guys to one of my fav song from Tyler Ward, [Paper Heart]!! I guess most people already know bout him but if you guys are interested, just click the name above. I’ve put the link to his Youtube page so guys can check his songs out!

Okay, I would like to introduce Sairah Bella, one of the youtube artists that I like! It might be a little bit confusing but this is not Sara Bareilles. I stumbled on her page when I was wondering around youtube in early 2010. She has a very unique voice that you can differentiate her from other singers. The way she strumming her guitar is also good.

Wait! I remember it now! I was so obsessed with Zee Avi’s songs that made me track down her account in Youtube! Zee Avi is awesome!! You guys should check her out too!! Especially her [Honey Bee] and if any of you guys is Malaysian, [Kantoi] probably ring a bell! That’s her!

KoKoKaiNa

For me, Sairah has the talent both in singing and writing lyrics. The first song that made me went wow on her entitled [Artificial Love]. At that time, I was in the mood of listening to the originals songs that people made. (It’s clearly after I’ve got influenced by the awesomeness of KokoKaina’s songs. =_=”)

At that time Sairah worked in a nursery and was entrance by the kids she took care of. She wrote the song for the mother of the kids and later on realized the truth about the family. Wonder what do you feel like you saw it was perfect, nice, and smooth and everything but deep inside it was all too chaotic to even look at it. Sairah managed to convey the feeling she had that time to her song.

I was looking for a song that is down-to-earth theme and that song just clicked. I was born and raised up in a town where parents are ultimately busy. Kids like us were sent to nursery and some of them got maids to take care of them. They grew up alone and eventually wanting a warm, welcoming, soothing surrounding. Sairah may see it from the perspective of an outsider but kids like us ARE the insider.

Seems too perfect on the outside but cluttered inside. Smile on the outside but broken inside. It all seems too perfect like a dream come true for them but it’s all somehow just a lie. It’s not like we could blame the both side for being there or even the situation. We are squeezed into the changes of the world and parents are forced to work to feed their kids. None of them were to blame.

Here the song from Sairah entitled [Artificial Love]. It won’t take too much time, just spend 2 minutes listen to this song. And oh, I’ve put the lyrics down there. Scroll down okay?

~LyRiCs~

She wakes up at dawn to pretty herself
She's forgotten her age but she don't need help
With an echoing house, designer clothes and a maid
A face lift, implants, diamonds and a jag

Two boys and two girls who live in daycare and a silent husband who's never there
He says that he'll call but always seems to forget, he says sweetheart you understand,
It's only business

And everything on the outside always seems to be alright but inside shes petrified of the light And she cries every night in this hole thats shes dug, shes soothing her soul with artificial love

And she walks with her head held high, cigarette blowing smoke to the sky
And her lips are perfectly lined
And her skirt gives the look she implies

And everything on the outside always seems to be alright but inside shes petrified of the light And she cries every night in this hole thats shes dug, shes soothing her soul with artificial love

And i used to think she had everything i used to think she had the world at her feet
Till the day her daughter said to me,i wish you were my mommy

And everything on the outside always seems to be alright but inside shes petrified of the light And she cries every night in this hole thats shes dug, shes soothing her soul with artificial love

~PaPeR HeaRt~

Somehow, sitting alone in front of my beloved lappie, I found myself another new world. I used to believe reality is everything. I once have my own world ever since in high school. That’s the only way to run away from reality. Reality hurts. I know. But nevertheless, you have to face it. But when I grew up and few years later I found myself running away again. Being a refugee in your own reality make you want to forget everything and indulge yourself in a world where you felt safe and calm.

And here I am. Wondering around in youtube and stumble across many talented artist. I know its sound crazy to anyone beside me now but I do believe and I felt really clam knowing there are many people out there who pursued their dream in any way possible. Me? Just sitting and watching as time passes by.

I want to be someone. Not someone that everyone adores but I want to be at least someone in my own world. I want to be me. I want to feel as human. Up and down and still breathing, that’s who I am. Smiling despite knowing things would be worse than it is. Screaming inside but no one ever heard it. Hating like no one ever cared. I try every way I can. So that I can look up again.

This is not a heart break. This is not a tears fall down my cheeks scene. This is just me and life. Enjoying every second I’ve got being someone useful and useless. Every turn up and down, dancing every step I can to my heart content. How about you?

Listen to this song~ And it make me wanna turn around and dance!

PaPeR HeaRt - Tyler Ward