~PaPeR HeaRt~

Somehow, sitting alone in front of my beloved lappie, I found myself another new world. I used to believe reality is everything. I once have my own world ever since in high school. That’s the only way to run away from reality. Reality hurts. I know. But nevertheless, you have to face it. But when I grew up and few years later I found myself running away again. Being a refugee in your own reality make you want to forget everything and indulge yourself in a world where you felt safe and calm.

And here I am. Wondering around in youtube and stumble across many talented artist. I know its sound crazy to anyone beside me now but I do believe and I felt really clam knowing there are many people out there who pursued their dream in any way possible. Me? Just sitting and watching as time passes by.

I want to be someone. Not someone that everyone adores but I want to be at least someone in my own world. I want to be me. I want to feel as human. Up and down and still breathing, that’s who I am. Smiling despite knowing things would be worse than it is. Screaming inside but no one ever heard it. Hating like no one ever cared. I try every way I can. So that I can look up again.

This is not a heart break. This is not a tears fall down my cheeks scene. This is just me and life. Enjoying every second I’ve got being someone useful and useless. Every turn up and down, dancing every step I can to my heart content. How about you?

Listen to this song~ And it make me wanna turn around and dance!

PaPeR HeaRt - Tyler Ward